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From The Desk Of Joe Rumbolo July 2007
My heart has been broken. It started to break from the moment of my first breath in this incarnation. It has been broken a hundred times over; a thousand times over. It has been ripped from my chest, thrown on the ground, stomped on and shattered into thousands of little pieces, these minute fragments so tiny that they have been blown away like the desert sand.
My heart has not only been broken by the beautiful, wonderful, powerful, yet seemingly harsh primary relationships that ultimately appear to have not worked on this 3rd Dimensional plane but by every relationship of any kind that I have ever had that appears to have not worked, of every perceived hurt, pain, fear, disappointment and resentment that I have ever felt, of every emotional bullet that I have ever taken in this life time and any other past/future/parallel life time that I have lived or am currently living. My heart has been broken.
I do not tell you this because I am looking for your sympathy or even your empathy. I do not tell you this because I am choosing to play the role of the victim.
I tell you this because your heart has been broken, too!
Whether you admit it to yourself or not, whether you are aware of it
I can hear some of you now, clicking away at your computers writing emails to me as you read this, all saying the same thing: "You know, Joe…the only reason your heart has been broken is because you have allowed it to be broken. You have invited that into your life because you had an expectation. You wanted something to look a certain way." In response to that I say, "So…what's your point? I am aware of this and I am Human. This is part of the Human experience. If you are Human, you will have expectations, period!" I certainly hope that having an expectation is not a Mortal Sin, condemning me to hell for all eternity, unless of course, I go to confession and have some guy absolve my Sin before I die!
Expectations! You/we all have them. How about the kid at school that was the last one to be picked on the team, or how about the kid that didn't even get picked? Did a heart get broken there? Will we condemn the child for wanting to play on the team…for wanting to be included…for having an expectation of playing on the team? A heart was broken. Perhaps it was yours!
I was fortunate enough to play sports well enough to be picked all the time and yet, my heart always went out to the kid that wasn't picked, although I'm sure there were times that I didn't have the courage to express it. He took a bullet and then I took a bullet with/for him. I didn't have to, but I did, although, upon further investigation, maybe I did have to take that bullet every time. Perhaps I did that out of guilt or perhaps out of compassion. Of course, maybe there really was not a choice in the matter. If you hurt in some way, am I not also hurt? Are we not all connected? If you are hurting, do you think that I won't feel it at some level, that everything and everybody on the planet won't feel it at some level? Of course, we will all feel it, even if we are so damned numb that we cannot consciously feel a thing. It has its effect on us; it makes its indelible mark on each one of us and it keeps us from seeing, knowing and being who we truly are. We may want to consider joining our respective local chapters of N A A…Numb-Asses Anonymous…even those who consider themselves to be the most enlightened of us.
Tell me…what about the high school girl that wanted to be invited to the prom…and was not…and what about the college graduate that wanted that certain job on Wall Street…and did not get it? Are they to be condemned because they took a bullet to the chest? Are they to be condemned because their hearts were broken? Are they to be condemned because they had a desire, an expectation, a Human expectation?
If you are Human, you will have expectations. You have dozens, even hundreds of them each day. It is a part of the Human experience. There are those who say that they live each moment without expectation. They say that they always reside in the present. Well, what I can tell you for sure is that there are those who want to live exclusively in the present and without expectation, 100% of the time, but I don't personally know anyone who can pull that one off at this time and I don't think that any of you do either. I can guarantee that I do not.
For those of you who are saying that you have no expectation, allow me to offer this to you. When you turn on a light switch, do you expect the light to go on? When you turn the ignition on your car, do expect it to start? Of course you do. The same is true if you turn on a water faucet, turn on your stove, use your telephone, use your computer…you expect all of these things to work properly. Expectations, all of them!
When you start a new job, especially one that you have wanted for a while, you have an expectation that it will work out for you and be everything that you want it to be and more. When you begin a new relationship, especially if you feel like this is the One, you may have the same expectation, that everything will work out the way you want it to be.
You may also do the best job that you can to live in the NOW. Those moments when you actually do live in the NOW are powerful, extraordinary, invigorating and rejuvenating and when you slip out of the NOW to the past or the future, you slip back into expectation and the potential for yet another broken heart.
I could just take responsibility for every bullet that I have allowed myself to take, knowingly or unknowingly, consciously or unconsciously and that is exactly what I have done. I have taken responsibility for allowing the expectation and for allowing the hurt and pain; I have taken responsibility for allowing my heart to be broken. This does not mean that I am accepting the blame nor am I blaming anyone else. What I know is that standing in this space of respons-ability is the only place from which to effect change. Accepting respons-ability does not mean that I did not bleed yesterday. It does not mean that I am not bleeding today; and it also does not mean that I will not bleed tomorrow.
Accepting respons-ability is not the end-all, it is merely a very powerful beginning. I am the only one that I can heal and accepting respons-ability is the first step in my personal healing. I neither have a mission to nor do I have a responsibility to heal the world. I cannot heal you. Only you can heal you so why would I want to set myself up for failure by even pretending that I can heal you or anyone else. I can facilitate your healing by creating and holding a safe space for you to do your work and I can supply you with information, knowledge, wisdom, principles, tools and mechanics for you to do your work, but only you can pickup your hammer, saw and screw driver and implement them.
My contribution to the healing of the world is for me to continuously heal myself. As my own wounds heal, so do the wounds of the entire planet, the Universe and everything in it, begin to heal. If I hurt myself, I hurt you, everything and everybody and as such, if I heal myself, I heal you, everything and everybody…because you are me, I am you and we are one.
I have done a considerable amount of work in this area of self-healing, as I know that many of you have, too. In fact, there have been a few of you who may be reading this who have been kind enough to be my triggers in this incarnation and of course, I do admit to squeezing off a few rounds at you, too. LOL! What a glorious game! I am, by no means, close to being finished and then again, maybe we are all closer than we think. It doesn't really matter. For me, I just need to continue forward with it.
What prompted this topic to begin with, this time, are the triggers that have caused this ongoing process of healing for me and especially recently. In the past, the triggers were monumental, for instance, the breakup of a primary relationship, an unexpected career turn that did not appear to be positive at first, an unexpected major expense, the dissolution of a close friendship, someone close transitioning, etc. Recently, however, the triggers have felt like little gnat bites. I'll be watching something on television, there will be a moment that will stir up some emotion within me, and for a moment…a fleeting moment…there will be tears and then nothing…I'm finished for that moment.
As many of you know, music has been a large part of my life and when I see and hear someone, especially a young up and coming artist, give the performance of his life, moving her one step closer to that elusive major label record deal, I have found myself sobbing…the feelings and emotions a mixture of joy and happiness as well as anger, hurt and sadness…bittersweet. The anger, hurt and sadness come from not having achieved the level of success in my career in the performance end of the music business that I had my heart set on, that was my expectation, that broke my heart. I know how the vibration of an extraordinary and inspirational performance feels and I know the joyous effect that it has on me, mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually, as it moves through me. I know this from my years in performance with the band and each time I hear and experience such an extraordinary and inspirational performance, I feel it all over again. The performance…this vibration…is both a positive and a negative catalyst, simultaneously, breaking my heart on the one hand and facilitating the healing, on the other.
When you break a bone and it has not healed correctly, it must be re-broken. So too, with the heart, broken in pieces and incorrectly healed, a mish-mash of shattered pieces stuck together with spit and chewing gum and band aids, barely working, it must be re-broken so that it will heal effectively and properly such that it will function once again at maximum capacity.
Some have gone through this; some are going through this; some will go through this. What we can tell you for sure is that once this process starts, it does not stop. Oh, there may be breathing and resting points, times to enjoy what you have accomplished and to reap what you have so courageously sown, but know that there is always more to handle.
Many are going through this right now and feeling the same as Christ felt on the cross when he expressed: My God, why have you forsaken me? That's how you feel. You've done all this work on yourself, committed to living your life a certain way, followed your inner guidance and you are having trouble seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. You don't want to play the role of the victim but you do feel forsaken, so much that even if you do see the light at the end of the tunnel, it seems as though it is actually the headlight of a speeding freight train headed right for you.
Again…here is what you need to know:
YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
We are all in this together…and moving forward. We are all here to help each other. Just keep this in mind: No One Goes Until Everyone Goes.
Know this above all:
Love is the answer;
I am thankful and grateful to have the opportunity to express my flavor of the truth for your discernment, through this venue.
If it is your choice, feel free to tell your friends about HealingTheUniverse.
Your questions and comments are always welcome. You may contact me at Joe@HealingTheUniverse.com.
and Pack Light!
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THE CLEAR VIBRATION™ July 2007 Installment # 53
Dearest Warriors of the Light…
We come to you this day to speak about just one topic, yet an extremely important topic. More and more attention has been paid, over the years and especially over the last sixty years, to that which you call the spiritual, the supernatural, the metaphysical…call it what you will…call it the woo-woo if you wish. Much attention has been given to everything inter-dimensional or multi-dimensional; parallel lives; parallel universes; that which is found outside of you; that which is found within in; and all of this quite all right.
Much has been said and written about Home; about going Home; about creating Heaven on Earth, Home on your side of the veil; as if there is something terribly wrong with where you are right now; as if there is something wrong with being Human; as if there is something wrong with your physical body, your bubble of biology. Regarding this matter, it seems as though you have implemented the "Grass Is Always Greener" theory. Many have said that they cannot wait until they get there, meaning Home or until they ascend, until they experience a time when there are no more secrets. You cause us to chuckle. In so striving to be the perfect little metaphysical/spiritual being, your behavior is so…well…Human! Many of you continuously speak the oldest and most worn out of Human words: As soon as THIS happens, THEN, I'll do THAT…As soon as I have some money, THEN I'll start helping people.
We have said in months past that over there is not better than or worse than where you are now. It is just different, but you see, many of you think that it is better. You just cannot wait to get there. That would be a judgment, lovely Human, so even as your gurus speak of how much better it will be and how much more wonderful it will be , we can guarantee you that it will be different (See: THE CLEAR VIBRATION June 2007 Installment #52).
So…it seems as though the more you want to move away from being Human…the more you want to diminish your Humanity…the more Humanly you behave and the more Human you become.
Some may see this as a condemnation of Human and of being Human. Rest assured, it is not. We have often said that you are BOTH a Spiritual Being Having A Human Experience AND a Human Being Having A Spiritual Experience. BOTH! Not just one or the other…quite contrary to traditional New Age thinking…yes, some of your New Age is becoming mainstream and in many instances, beginning to look as though it is…Gulp…Religious, God Forbid!
Our message this time is short and for some it is sweet, for others it is quite bitter.
You are Spirit. There is no denying that. You are also Human. You chose that. HUMAN! That is the only way that you can play this particular game that you have chosen to play. It is The Game Of Human and the Human body…the biology…is as much of this game as anything else is, in fact, you cannot play the game without this biology.
What we say to you today is simply this:
Embrace your Humanity. Love your Humanness. Love what you have; want what you have; appreciate who and what you are and know that your Human body is as sacred and as much an integral part of this incredible game that you have all designed and continue to design, moment to moment, as the spirit that you so celebrate…that you so worship.
We have spoken often about Living and Being the Bridge…living your life with one foot in the spiritual and one foot in the Human 3-D, in harmony, drawing all the tools available in the spiritual and grounding them in the 3rd Dimension to use in manifesting the life you want. In visualizing Living and Being the Bridge, notice that the Bridge meets in the center, within you. That is where you will find the Akash. That is where you will find all the knowledge and wisdom of the All That IS…within you, the Human.
What we request is that you appreciate the Human that is you, honor the Human that is you, love the Human that is you and Celebrate the DIVINITY of the Biology, the DIVINITY of the Human that is you.
Without Human, there is no game.
We thank you for playing.
Until next time, WE ARE ONE and we express to you our most heartfelt thanks and gratitude for the opportunity to present this information to you for your discernment.
ALL OF THIS IS YOURS FOR THE TAKING.
TAKE ALL OF IT. TAKE SOME OF IT. TAKE NONE OF IT.
We ask only that you…
Spread The Light
DO NOT FORGET TO BREATHE!
YOU ARE GOD, and So Is Everyone Else.
We reluctantly leave you at this time but before we go, please allow us to reveal ourselves:
All along, it has been Me talking to YOU; You talking to Me; You talking to You; and Me Talking to Myself…no mystery, no mystique.
From the beginning it has been Us talking to Ourselves.
I AM Joseph…I AM the Sentinel…I AM the Human
I AM You
WE ARE ONE
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